First Award

"Your going places, baby" award!

So im pretty sure this is my first award (one that i saw anyways). Thanks to Katie @ Jersey Blonde for my first one! The rules are to say where you will be in 10 years and then pass it on to 10 people.

Okay 10 years ill be 32.... this is actually ironic i received this award today because i am going through some tough decisions right now about where i want to be in life. BUT im pretty sure i know where i could possibly be in 10 years. I think (hope) i will be a teacher, a wife and a mommy in my hometown (possibly). I will have 3 kiddies (2 boys and 1 girl). We will be living in a nice house with some great awesome friends! I want to travel to Mexico and other countries where there are orphanages and teach to those children. Thats my dream :)


So i pass this on to EVERYONE! because i donno if 10 people regularly read my blog! haha

Last Day :)

Tomorrow is my LAST day in Kindergarten and i am so sad! I am going to miss these kiddies to death! They are so precious and I will forever remember them. This has been a great experience and I am looking forward to 2nd grade!

yup this is def them!

a "serious one"

I have some pretty serious thinking to do in the next couple of days about job hunting. Thoughts to come soon.

RASCAL FLATTS BABY!

This weekend some of the girls and a few boys we met decided to go to the Rascal Flatts concert here in Raleigh! After school we had to hurry up and get ready so that we could tailgate with the boys. It was fun! But soooo HOT! We just had lawn seats, but it was still a blast anyways!

tailgating :)

view from the lawn

sitting on the lawn waiting :)

Jay and Evan

having a blast!

It was so much fun and we will be going back in 2 weeks to see Toby Keith!! I need to learn more of his songs between now and then so i bought his latest CD and we will listen to it on the way to school everyday!

Lyss

Engagement pictures

Long over do. Quality is bad they are a picture of a picture :) Photographs done by Jessica Ames!!!

What I've Been Up To :)

Boy have ive been busy teaching my little kiddies! I cant believe we only have 5 more days till they track out for summer and i move to 2nd grade! Here are some pictures of the things we have been learning:)








Busy busy learning about transportation, snails, magnets, and oceans!

My Day, My Decison..Your Choice, Your Regret.

Wedding talk time. YAY! wrong. I am still engaged and i am still very much in love and can't wait till the big day, although the planning and wedding talk got pushed to the way side with teaching, i think about it everyday!

Onto baby mama drama story (not really baby mam drama.. just drama but that doesn't sound as cool). Background info: I have a dad and a step dad. My dad was a good dad till i was 12. My step dad came into my life when i was 10ish. My dad and i have had a rocky relationship since i was 13. He made some choices that I did not agree with. (choosing the bar and gambling over family). He was constantly in the bars spending money "he didnt have". The calls were far and few between and the visits were even more rare.. i mean 1 mile away is just so far away. I cant remember the last time i recieved a b-day gift, a highschool/college graduation gift, an offer to help me move (4times), a call to make sure i made it home okay.. the list goes on. Now my step-dad did HELP provide for me finically and made sure i never went without. Helped me move every time i moved, called to make sure i made it home, and for the most part had my best interest in mind. My dad did not offer 1 dime towards college, heck stoped paying support the day i turned 18 and even bitched that he payed for the whole month when for 5 days i was 19!!!! ARE you KIDDEN ME?? ASS. Now i won a scholarship and i got to put it in the paper, my mom filled it out and sent it in.. and she put me the daughter of her and my step-dad. NO dads name and my dad hit the roof. Did i do it no? Was i mad she did it? Not really... am i who i am today because of any help to him? Not really. Okay enough background info.

I get a call on fathers day from the step-mom. I was surprised because i had called my dad earlier that day..so why would she be calling? Welp.... "Its fathers day and i have a question...Who is walking you down the aisle?" [[What the hell its 2 years away and i knew this was coming but this soon really? really? GOD]] "Well i haven't thought about it really [lie]. but i would have both because they both played a father role in my life" "Well your dad cant take that, and if hes not the only one im booking him and i a trip that weekend" "Well its my day, my decision and if he is not going to be an adult about it then i dont want him there"

The convo goes on for an HOUR! and i am stunned that SHE is calling me about this. Its between my dad and I and we will talk about it. But as far as im concerned i made my decision and im sticking to it. If my father does not show up to my wedding im going to hurt inside. I know he wasn't the best, but hes my father. But on the other hand if hes going to act childish (and prove to me WHY he hasn't earned the right to be the only one to walk me down the aisle.. then so be it).

I plan on talking to my dad when i get home and letting all my feelings out. (ones from years ago). If he chooses not to attend, it his lost and regret. I could never not see my step dad not participating in my special day.

Ugh. well see. Situations like this only make us stronger.

Weekend Recap :-]

This weekend was fabulous!

My mama came down to visit! She came to my school and met all my little kiddies and my teacher. A one little girl said "Your a teacher, you cant have a mom". Too cute these kids! Friday night we went to dinner at the Carolina Ale House and called it a night. I was so beat from the week. Saturday we spent the day shopping! I didnt get a thing. So bummed! Then Sat night we went out! Yup with my Mama! She loved it :) haha. Then sunday we went to the beach! It was so nice just laying on the beach :)

This weekend went by way too fast! It was sad to see my mom go home this morning! But i do get to see luke in less than 2 weeks :) Yay

This is my last FULL week at kindergarten. I am so tired today. Im writing some reflections, watching bachelorette and going to bed!

Much Better Day!

Thanks for the support and advice it means a lot! I forgot to mention in my rant that my co-op had my back 100%. She thinks im a great teacher and that K is my thing! She is the one that observes me everyday.. so she would know.. right :)

I realized that everything happens for a reason and bad days make the ok days feel great. If it was not for the rough days.. we wouldnt appreciate the great days :) And this i have realized! Today was a GREAT day.. compared to yesterday of course. Everything happens for a reason and because of this situation i will be a stronger person. In teaching and any profession you have your good days and your bad days.

On to something totally new and random. Yesterday i got addicted to Glee and i have watched 4 episodes already! Just what i need more distractions.

My mama is coming down from PA to visit us in NC! Im so excited to have her here for the weekend! I hope she get in time to meet my kiddies :) We are gonna have a fun relaxing weekend!

One more day till the weekend!!!

How Dare You?

Today was a rough day. Rough actually would be an understatement! Horrible No good Sucky Day.

Today started off great. Lie IT was all down hill from 9:05 on. I was observed by a NEW adviser of mine. We go back to Sophomore year. I never got a good vibe from her and today proved it. I know i should have stuck to my gut feeling, silly me giving her the benefit of the doubt.

The kids were crazy, wild, talkative, outa control. But they can be like this. Honestly if i learned one thing in K so far, they set the stage. Well one kid can set and ruin the stage in a matter of seconds. Thats what happened today. We had flying shoes, moving squares, out burst, roll on the flooor, hit a kid on the bus kind. of. day. All by 9:20

I thought i handled it well. I mean all my kids were still alive, i still had all my hair, and we made it to lunch by 11:20.

Apparently my "adviser" thought differently.

her: "K is not your thing is it?"
me: " uhh well this is my 1st time teaching it"
her: "Yeah i can tell K is not your cup of tea"
me thinking :" WELL THANKS LADY for NOTHING, i thought i was doing a good job and was enjoying K"
Me: "speechless...uhhh yeah its hard"
Her: "dont worry i couldn't do it"
Me think: "well i KNOW i can and thanks for no support"
me: "yeah its tough"

I WAS SOO IRRITATED! SHE HAD NO FAITH IN ME AND FOR ONE SECOND MADE ME THINK I HAD NO FAITH IN MYSELF!! HOW DARE YOU. I AM AN AWESOME TEACHER AND I CAN HANDLE MY STUDENTS. THANK. YOU. VERY. MUCH.

rant over.
Retail therapy and margarita did the trick.

Getting to know you sunday!

1. If you could have one of Superman's, powers which one would you want? Superhuman strength..Flight..Superhuman speed..X-Ray vision..etc

I would say flight so that i could be all over the place
in a matter of minutes!

2. The best thing I ever won is....?

I honestly do not know if i ever won anything... but
someday i will something big...maybe the lotto ;)

3. Have you ever skyped with a bloggy friend?

I just did with my sis Ky we are bloggy friends too!

4. What is your favorite Summer month?

I would say August because that is when Lukas and I
go to the beach together.. but not this year :(

5. Pool, Lake, or Ocean?

Ocean for sure!

6. One of my favorite Summer memories is.....?

Def the beach with Lukey. But one of my favorite childhood memories would be church camp every summer. It was for a week! It was so much fun and i just recently joined the group on FB and it makes me miss it and i cant wait to make (yes make, they have no choice) my kiddies go there! hehe

7. What's your favorite secret bargain?

None?

8. Do you plan on or have you been watching the World Cup?

Nope.

Are you who you want to be?

Take a look at yourself in the mirror. Who do you see looking back?

Or is there someone else you were meant to be?
The person you should have been but fell short of?

Is someone telling you you can't or you won't? Because you can.

Believe that love is out there.

Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do.

Sometimes happiness doesn't come from fame or money or power.
Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and
from the quiet nobility of leading a good life.

Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do.

So take a look at yourself in that mirror and tell yourself to be happy.

Because you deserve to be.

1/4 of the way over already!

Week 3 is done and i am 1/4 of the way over. i cant believe how fast this is going. I am constantly busy and somewhat overwhelmed. Just gotta take one day at a time :) This past week i finished up my fish lesson with my kids and they LOVED it! You should have heard some of the names they came up with. These little minds are so creative (and a little out there ;))! This week we start isopods in science and let me tell you bugs are not my thing..ugh. But i gotta pretend because i know they are all gonna love it!

This past weekend was fun. Friday night was interesting. We left our apt about 10 and didnt make it to the bar till 12. A longggg story. haha Saturday we went out again :) Here are some pictures!!

the girls!!

This looks like one of jays ex's haha.

AND this kids also looks like one of her exs
(obviously one we dont like ;))

It was a fun weekend! But very tiring! Sunday i spent the day doing lessons and reflections. I also had the chance to skype with my sis ky:) It was nice seeing her house, her, and my little nephew!!! How cute :)

Time for a busy busy week :(